If you’ve been following for a while, you should know I’ve been dealing with a lot of medical crap lately. If you are a new reader, I’ll just say doctors are mostly assholes.
No, really. I’ve been trying to figure out what is wrong with me. I have a long list of symptoms, and I’m pretty sure it has to do with my hormone levels. I’ve been to numerous doctors, each of which has done one test and said it was in my head. I’ve been treated very badly. I’ve been passed off to other doctors. I’ve just been frustrated.
Recently, I visited a Gynecologist. It was time of my yearly exam anyway, but I figured I could run the list of symptoms by him. He brushed the symptoms off and tried to figure out how to treat each one individually. He put me on a progesterone only birth control pill, which I asked for. I really think it will fix most of my issues. I’ll get back to this part later.
He mentioned that my uterus felt enlarged and that it was probably filled with fibroids. However, there was a chance I could have cancer. I had an ultrasound done the very next day.
Two weeks later, I tried to figure out why I didn’t have my results yet. Apparently the radiology facility sent the results to the wrong doctor. They faxed my results to the correct doctor, and I went back to waiting.
I called to check on things the following day. I left a message, and no one returned my call.
I called again the second day and talked to the receptionist. She said my results were mailed to me, but my ultrasound was ‘all clear.’ I freaked out on her a bit, because I was told the doctor would call me. She could not answer any of my questions and informed me that my doctor was out of the office until the end of the following week (this week).
I received the letter a few days later. This is what it said:
Could this letter be any more vague? It just raised more questions in my head. Was my uterus still enlarged, and it wasn’t fibroids/cancer? If so, what was causing it? Was my uterus normal? If so, what was he feeling?
So, I waited for the doctor to call me back.
In the meantime, I got a copy of my report from the radiology facility, along with a CD of my slides. Does anyone want to see what my ovaries look like? I haven’t looked at it yet, but I’m curious.
This is what the report said:
That doesn’t sound like a clear ultrasound to me. I know that cysts and such are pretty normal, but I still should have been informed of them.
I knew the ultrasound technician spent a lot of time on my left side, though. It actually made me really worried how much time she spent taking photos over there. Add that with the fact that I get ovulation pain on that side, and you get a very worried pami.
I finally spoke with the doctor yesterday, and he answered all of my questions. My uterus is normal sized. He was just feeling stomach fat, intestines, or scar tissue from my csection. All of the cysts are completely normal. The one of my ovary is actually collapsing, so it shouldn’t be an issue.
I just hope it doesn’t burst. Seriously, guys, that’s the worst pain I’ve ever experienced in my life. It’s worst than Pitocin-induced labor. It sucks.
I’m just annoyed with how this whole situation has been handled. I understand that doctors deal with tests like this all the time. So, they’re a bit desensitized to the process. However, this is only the second time in my life I’ve heard the words ‘you might have cancer.’ The first time was when I was about 20, and I had an abnormal pap. I was anxious about this. I wanted my results, not the vaguest form letter ever.
I’m just sick of doctors. I’ve been to appointment after appointment for the past three months. I just can’t stomach this any longer. Instead of persevering, I’m going to do an experiment. I have to see my regular doctor at the end of January to discuss my Cymbalta and the Gynecologist around the same time regarding my birth control. Until then, I’m just going to keep taking the birth control to see if it helps. If it does, I’ll just keep up with it. If it doesn’t, then I’ll bring it up at those appointments. I’ll probably make an appointment with a Naturopath at that point, too.
I’ve been taking the pills since Sunday, and I definitely feel better in a few different areas of my life. It might be the placebo effect, but I’ll take it!
That means you all get a break from the medical posts until then. Well, unless there is an emergency or a crazy awesome breakthrough. I’m done being negative. I’m done being treated this way. I’m just done.
I’ve heard story after story of doctor fails since I’ve spoken out about my mistreatment. It’s appalling that this seems like it’s the norm.
To everyone out there: You do not deserve to be treated like this. You are paying for a service, so don’t be afraid to speak up or even fire your doctor.
To people in the medical profession: It’s NOT alright to treat people like this. We are real people with real feelings. We have questions and are not appeased by a negative result. We want answers, not to be brushed aside. Stop being major douche-nozzles. Seriously. Stop it.
I promise my next post will be happier.
Thank you for all your support!